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My dear Journal, I have something to whisper to you:
I got what I wanted... and now I`m afraid.
I`ve always been a little nervous about my unfinished clinical psychology studies, but I also know that this is not a full-time job I`d like to have. I always take too personal other people`s emotions, and I have enough already being a shoulder to cry on at my leisure time since I can remember myself.
Then a new word, "coaching" appeared. I liked the idea, but I find totally wrong it`s goal, to teach a man to be a better slave.
When I heard about "life coaching" concept for first time, I knew: This is who I am. I always was.
Living freelancer`s life you sometime get interesting jobs. People sometimes need really strange things to be done; I find lot of fun in it. But now I have this dysfunctional family with unhappy teenagers involved in their parents` stupid decisions, and another "family" with little child, who has taken his mother`s stress on himself... It feels like right thing to do, driving away suicidal thoughts, helping to find some light in daily shit these children have not deserved etc, but I am so afraid- to fail, to be not competent enough, be not worthy their trust. Again, I take their emotions, live their lives and it`s burning me.
I know, I know, I`m getting material for pile of books... if I`ll survive to write them.
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: Water pump working
  • Reading: Coaching handbook
  • Watching: Game of Thrones
  • Playing: Neverwinter Nights 2
  • Eating: Can`t eat
  • Drinking: Tee


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Downshifter and roadseeker. Kitchen psychologist. Amateur herbalist. Lady Peter Pan.

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nomibubs Feb 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Happy Birthday Love! Hope you've had a great time. Airborne 
Looking forward to your Smut OS:giggle: May the dices be with you;-)
I rolled Varania Oops! 
If it's Fenris please roll again:nod:
OMG, I rolled her AGAIN! :D Maker wants it... well, I can imagine it happening by accident but I better don`t :D
On repeated one, got Morrigan, but this already has happened. From THERE I find your generator. ;)
... got Morrigan one more time... Varania again... finally, Hawke :D Yeah, but I have written this already...
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Thank you for adding The Lyrium That Binds Us Ch 3 and Ch 8 to your :+fav:'s. Please let me know if you would like any in return :)
Thanks 4 the fav :smooch:
You already know I`m fan of your hot stories :D
:dummy: makes me sooo happy:huggle:
Billini Mar 8, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Thanks for the watch ^^
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