marikena

Just stumbled upon this: IMDB: Dragon age III Voice cast and wanted to share, in case someone hasn`t noticed.

My dear Journal, I have something to whisper to you:
I got what I wanted... and now I`m afraid.
I`ve always been a little nervous about my unfinished clinical psychology studies, but I also know that this is not a full-time job I`d like to have. I always take too personal other people`s emotions, and I have enough already being a shoulder to cry on at my leisure time since I can remember myself.
Then a new word, "coaching" appeared. I liked the idea, but I find totally wrong it`s goal, to teach a man to be a better slave.
When I heard about "life coaching" concept for first time, I knew: This is who I am. I always was.
Living freelancer`s life you sometime get interesting jobs. People sometimes need really strange things to be done; I find lot of fun in it. But now I have this dysfunctional family with unhappy teenagers involved in their parents` stupid decisions, and another "family" with little child, who has taken his mother`s stress on himself... It feels like right thing to do, driving away suicidal thoughts, helping to find some light in daily shit these children have not deserved etc, but I am so afraid- to fail, to be not competent enough, be not worthy their trust. Again, I take their emotions, live their lives and it`s burning me.
I know, I know, I`m getting material for pile of books... if I`ll survive to write them.

"There comes a time when you look into the mirror and you realize that what you see is all that you will ever be. And then you accept it. Or you kill yourself. Or you stop looking in mirrors."
/Tennessee Williams/

I liked it so much that decided to share.
More quotations from that man: Tennessee Williams quotations

Just had it coming to my mind: I wonder how did George R. R. Martin feel, writing "A Song of Ice and Fire"? For me this is the darkest thing I have ever red, with first line heroes dying in mind-blowing violent way left and right, and I can hardly imagine, that author has not a single emotion about all that.

They say that good comedian should not laugh on his own jokes, otherwise he is not truly good. Could it be truth regarding the writing, too?

Last night I woke up at 3 a.m. with new plot in my mind, which demanded imediately to be written down, well, at least in high level. I did not know, that my mind is able to nurse something so dark, everybody suffers or/and dies, etc. It ended up with me running out of tissues (but I am known pack rat with stocks of everything at least for three apocalypses). And now I`m wondering, is it good or bad sign.

So, my question is: Every writer wants to see his readers screeming, crying, laughing, but what about his own feelings? Does having them is helping or interfering? Opinions?

Just rered my last published entry, One Night Stand, corrected one million errors and now wonder, why I am not killed yet in some horrendous way, invented specially for terrible writers.

As it wouldn`t be enough, after just two months here in deviantArt, still not understanding majority of ongoings, I stumbled upon a Contest, submitted the story (it was an accident, I swear ), got featured (still don`t know, does it mean something good or bad)... Never knew, that it would made me so worried. Am I still afraid of Big Bad Critique Fairies, or what?

Would like to know, how did You feel getting first attention to Your writings?

/hiding into a closet/